After posting about how I thought Ava looked better, as of yesterday she is as lame (or worse) than she was 23 days ago.
I am devastated.
I don’t want a new horse. I want MY horse. I don’t want to ride other people’s horses. I want to ride MY horse. I want my horse back, dammit!
I keep reading up on stifle injuries, and nothing makes sense. She’s never had heat or swelling in the stifle. She’s nearly sound some days and then horribly lame the next (even though nothing has changed). She isn’t lame at the walk at all. She swings the leg way up under herself, over-tracks the front hoof print by a hoof length (which is the norm for Ava). Shouldn’t she be lame at the walk too? I don’t understand that…
I don’t have $2,000 – $3,000 to do arthroscopic surgery. And it’s no guarantee that they’ll be able to fix the problem. The only thing it’s being billed as is a diagnostic tool to hopefully tell me what was wrong with Ava. But maybe they won’t be able to tell me. Or worse, they find out that the joint is totally destroyed.
I am utterly depressed about this. It feels hopeless.